One girl I know called them pee chills. Another, piss shivers. If you are at a loss with respect to what I’m referencing, its like a sneeze growing in your nether regions as you take a leak, culminating with this shiver and tickle — a tiny high. Almost a mini-orgasm of varying intensity. They have been intensifying in my life as of late; they have also been moving beyond the realm of mere piddling. One day at work this week was particularly intense. Throughout the day, I would burst into a higher awareness and it would rise and climax — all without apparent trigger.
The underlying tension was akin to how I felt when I would get angry or scared, only this time it carried the emotional tone of pleasure, eagerness, with a bit of anxiety — an energetic, escalating cocktail of anticipation. It was a full-body feeling akin to riding the edge of a sneeze or building, building sexual excitement, ever on the brink of blowing a full-body load.
When I got home that night, I had difficulty meditating. I got stoned, jerked off, and after a nap felt better, but with a sort of brain-strain. The tension was still there, like background noise, and I had an almost-headache-like pressure in my skull the following day.
I remain perplexed.
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